Should I quit

Sorry for the long post. Hello, I’m a freshman on my school’s women’s varsity team and I’m really struggling with a decision to call it quits or not. Starting with what I like: - I love on the water training. Being in the boat every morning with the team genuinely makes me happy. - I really like being part of the team. I’ve formed a really strong sense of camaraderie with the novices I started with. As someone who has really struggled to make friends at school, they are really my first and only friend group. - Getting to say that I’m a varsity athlete makes me feel really accomplished and like I’m really part of something bigger.

Moving on to what I don’t like: - I actually hate erging. Just thinking about having to do a test piece makes me extremely anxious. I’ve had breakdowns, full on sob-fests because I dread having to do an erg workout. - I’m not really good at rowing. It’s probably because I’m small and really light, so I just can’t get enough power. I’m constantly comparing my subpar times to everyone else which really sucks the joy out of things.

There are aspects of the sport I really do like and I am hesitant to leave behind. But there are other aspects that stress me out so much it kind of becomes a detriment to my mental health. Sorry for the rant, but any advice would be appreciated!