my mom threatened to off me over something small

just some background info, my mom would be abusive in the past but as i grew older she’s toned down quite a bit. however recently at the beginning of july she started becoming more aggressive again. i usually just ignore her as i have no energy to quarrel with her and i’m kinda scared of her.

just now she came in to my room to dispose of my clean laundry and the moment she opened my cupboard, she turned to me with the most murderous look in her eyes and told me dead in the face she wanted to k*ll me and my dad😭 and to make it worse she even emphasised it by saying it twice and all this was all because of the fact that my dad and i sometimes just chuck our clothes into our cupboard without folding them. then she started giving me the cold shoulder and even though she’s at the other end of the house, i can still feel the horrible tension

my long term friends have known about her and my situation and they always tell me that she’s mentally ill (OCD and probably something else) and needs to get professional help (she has mentioned in an outburst she had that she wanted to get therapy but she was too busy to even think about it). i have told them about this situation and they encouraged me to turn to my therapist, which i definitely will. i’m grateful that i have such supportive friends to comfort me whenever things go downhill, but there’s only so much they can do for me and i don’t wish to burden them with such negative issues.

i love my mom i really do and i always close one eye whenever she’s being unreasonable. i know she loves me and probably doesn’t mean half of the fucked up things she says but at this point i’m unsure of what to do. i’m still a student and honestly i dont really know what i’m trying to get out of this rant. i just feel awful💀 regardless, thank you for reading up to here. pls stay safe yall😭🙏🏻