Please read and Help.

Hello everyone. I am pouring my heart out here today and I clearly need direction and help. I am Shiva Bhakth and had intension devotion and love for him. I always belive Shivji is my Answer to all of problems and worshiping him will clear everything for me. I do belive that but somehow I feel a drop of devotion or willingness to anything to worship him. I am lost. In this April I got engaged to a guy. I had been talking to him since 3 months before that and with lots of efforts I got enagaged as he was not ready for commitment due to our Financial Differences (Im richer than him). At that time I was in alot of pain at that time because I was not getting any good matches for marriage and the one I liked dint commit.. I had prayed to Mahadev for him and mostly to get me out of my pain and clear my way. I got engaged to him but since then Ive felt a drop in devotion. But we both love eachother alot. And my heart says that everything is working out for me. But due to a drop of devotion Im wondering if It my Mahadev's wish or not? Im thinking if Mahadev ji wanted us to be together or not? How do I seek a answer for this?

Side notes why I think its right for me. 1- My fiance's family god is Mahadev and they do Shivling pooja at home. So i feel its right for me because There is Shivji in that house and he cannot do wrong. 2- Few days after my engagement I had a dream of multiple Shivlings and my In laws and me doing pooja of those Shivlings. 3- Everything matches upto 80% of my Idea of Ideal marriage.

Why I am doubting 1- A sudden sense of loss of Devotion towards Mahadev. 2- There a lot of Differences in Lifestyle and living 3- I feel my patner has alot of unhealed stuff to handle. Also few People gossiping that he is with me for money. 4- Im not able to trust my patner 100%. May be because of my low self esteem.

Please help me seek direction and answers to this. How do I ask my Mahadev for a sign or confirmation that whatever happened, happened with his approval and Mahadev wanted us to be together. Thank you reading and any comments, advice is appreciated. Har Har Mahadev❤️