What would you do?

I feel beat down. I really do. I feel pathetic for even going on here and making this post but I don’t even know what else to do. I am so tired of being a kind heart and a good person and waiting for good things to happen to me in life but these last few years have been so hard. As I sit here alone in my car freezing my butt off I just feel like life is punching me in the face. Nothing good stems out of not having money in life. I’m in pain. Physically and mentally. It makes me feel so empathetic for those who have fallen to drugs because when they were at their most vulnerable no one was there for them. No one helped them. What a terrible, miserable, lonely hole of hell to be in. How else are you supposed to cope? It’s easy for people who have good support systems to get back up but for those of us who have none the feeling is like an empty bottomless pit. I don’t think people realize most of America is one circumstance from being in a situation like mine. All it takes is one lay off, one wrong decision, one wrong anything and you are starving and clawing your way for survival. I would consider myself a very strong person but the mental health aspect of being in survival mode all of the time really takes a toll on you. I’m completely losing myself. It’s cruel to be homeless in this city. It’s cruel the cost of food these days. It’s cruel to ask for basic healthcare and get denied. It’s cruel to know a lot of us have everything we may need as a human to survive and for some of us we have nothing. Absolutely nothing.

What do I do? How do I climb my way out of this? Has anyone else been in this situation? How did you get out of it?