I can’t relate to friends anymore

I am writing this drunk…. But today’s night out definitely showed that I can’t fully connect and relate with friends anymore. We have so different worries, I do also feel like they only know some of me, And i would love to be honest but I can’t, I know I can’t, Which makes me feel lonely in the middle of all my friends. Socializing but feeling lonely.

I paid for tonights drinks and they were so surprised and incredibly happy… Which again reminded me of how my relationship with money changed, 100$ are nothing… but it was so much for them.