I feel bad for Meri

I’m rewatching SW and Meri had to be going through some dark times. Kody denying the relationship, having an empty nest, feeling like she had no part of the family and being blind sided that her only child is gay. During this time, the family prepared for 3 weddings of the oldest daughters and Meri probably felt sad that she’d never experience this for her only child. I can understand why she felt like an outsider and distanced herself from the family.