Is It Time For Me To Get “Sober”?
For a bit of context here I’m 19, male, in college (doing my A-Levels a little late but better late than never) and I mainly smoke weed. I used to go out with my friends regularly and we’d basically always get fucked up (mainly on alcohol and cocaine), no matter where we went. Clubs, bars, parks, flats/apartments etc. Lately the idea of going out with my friends to get messed doesn’t excite me anymore, it’s actually kinda the opposite.
I used to love going out and getting fucked up, and a part of me definitely still does. And I’m also aware that I can still go out and get fucked up without making it a regular thing. However, recently I find myself questioning “what’s the point?”
I’m 19, 20 at the end of the year. Doing my A-Levels late in college and I have no work experience outside of around 2 years in hospitality and a few months in waste management. I wanna finish school, go to University and become an English teacher. I don’t wanna go out and spend my limited money on drugs/alcohol anymore. I don’t mind continuing to smoke weed, I really enjoy the way it makes me feel. Weed definitely helps me with stress. But I don’t wanna go out and get fucked up on things alcohol, cocaine, MDMA etc anymore
But at the same time I have people telling me things like “You’re 19 you’re still young go out and have fun whilst you can, you’re not even 20 yet!”And whilst I completely understand that mentality I also wanna do things with my life and time that actually benefit me and my future. Is this a normal way to feel? Can anyone else relate etc? Or am I just boring and/or crazy? 😂