Always really nervous around this time.
I am living in America, and if you didn’t know there are very important elections going on. I’m slightly worried about the results, but what’s scaring me the most is what my friends at work are going to do. And what the rest of the world is going to do. I feel kind of stupid when it comes to politics. I feel like I have opinions, but I guess I’m just really used to my opinion being ignored because it is so hard to make myself really care about what happens. I’m kind of just think “life goes on. And I can’t change anything.” However, I know my friends from work are going to be very upset. I can barely handle being around people (especially friends) who are upset and angry. Even if it has nothing to do with me. I’m kind of like a sponge sometimes. I just start absorbing negativity and take it on myself. This already happens so much at work. It can change my mood in seconds. I’m not trying to say I dont want them to be sad. Because I know this election was important to them. It’s just going to be very hard for everyone.
I also just get scared of what’s going to happen in the world. I’m worried fights and riots are going to start and they’ll all be horrible. I live in a state that has a pretty clear opinion of who should be president, so I don’t think anything big will happen here. But it always hurts me to see that people were injured during riots online.
I really feel like I have that sense of justice a lot of autistic people have. I want everything to be okay. But I also feel like I know the reality. I can’t do anything to help with this because I barely understand politics.
I also hate this time because when my parents watch the news, there’s always weird political ads. Usually they’re dramatic but okay. But yesterday one came on that showed pictures of babies with horrible birth defects and what I’m pretty sure was a dead child. This was after I was already overwhelmed from going out to vote. I’m not kidding when I say that made me cry for a long time. I don’t know why they would feel the need to show that. I know it might motivate some people to vote, but I feel like most would be very disturbed.
I’m sorry for rambling, I just have a lot of thoughts around this time.