It’s just not working.

I was hoping to feel something today. Any glimmer of hope. I had one good day with positive results after each my 1st and 6th infusion. Other than that one day, nothing. Yesterday was 7th. Tomorrow is 8th. I did 85mg yesterday (my weight is 54kg, can someone tell me what dose that is?) I cried when I woke up and cried last night. I cleaned a little and walked around my neighborhood and still felt this heavy blanket of depression over my soul. The money I’ve spent on this is stressing me out on top of it.