They called my therapist
So hi again guys Liam here, my parents who were very confused about me ignoring them completely. I do most of the house work since for the most part they ignore me and my siblings. Today they called my therapist without telling me so we have to all talk rn. I will be labeling the update with the major things that happened or that I think are important. Idk what to put as warnings so comment what I should put if their are any.
1# my therapist made me bring my parents into the session, he said it wouldn't start unless I got them. I ended up getting them and he brought out these little papers written in sans font saying I had bpd, I already have the diagnosis for autism and ADHD so I was just panicking. He gives me the sheet and goes over each symptom with my parents saying I had at least five symptoms on the sheet so I have it.
2# i brought up how I have been ignoring them because of their behavior and how what they said was mean spirited and cruel and how I don't want to talk to them when all they can be is mean. They said that I shouldn't be upset over a little teasing. I said it wasn't teasing what they did was flat out bullying and heartless, they just went on a rant about how they want best for me and would never do that.
3 my dad spoke about how when he later confronted me and started calling me insults like 'ladyman' and 'karen', leaving those parts out. I got upset and went to push him. Instead my dumbass went to push him with a closed fist. I was so mortified I ended up running away to my room because I was outside of it at the time. He spoke about how we should never solve our problems with violence even though he has gone over multiple rants about beating my bad behavior out of me so hard that he will go to prison. He also left the prison part out.
4# my therapist talked about my hair saying he could understand that some names might have been thrown around because the haircut was a drastic change and they deserve to have that. I was practically disassociated at that point. He then went on to put that I came out to him as trans a while back and I was so mortified I ran too my room.
as I'm writing this I hear them laughing together upstairs and I'm just sobbing. I don't know what to do. I'm sorry for all the trouble I just don't know who to talk too.
edit: I forgot to put the symptoms of Bpd he gave me, I haven't checked if this is real or not it's just on the paper he gave me. thank you all for supporting me, I'm happy to know that I'm not imagining all of this. he said I had at least five of these and did not expand further on it before asking my parents how they were.
1.frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined emotional abandonment
2.unstable and chaotic interpersonal relationships , often characterized by a pattern of alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation
3.a markedly disturbed self sense of identity and distorted self-image
- impulsive reckless behavior
5.recurrent suicidal ideology or behavior
- rapidly shifting intense emotional dystegulation
6.chronic feelings of emptiness
7.inapropriate intense anger that can be difficult to control
8.transient, stress related paranoid ideation or severe disassociated symptoms