My sister convinced her best friend to take my virginity and break my heart...

I don't have the energy to type out too many details because it's a long ass story and hard to relive, so if people need more information, just ask me in the comments...

Alright, let's do this. My sister and I haven't spoken in years for many reasons (some of which you can see in my post history) but one of the most traumatic was how she and her best friend betrayed me when I was 17 and she was 20 and her male best friend was 22.

When my sister got engaged to her husband, we were all in high school together. I was ugly as HELL in high school and never dreamed someone as cool and attractive as her best friend would be into me. They got married my senior year of high school, and they were all in their second year at university. At their engagement party was the first time I saw him and instantly had a huge crush. It was clear he could tell cause I was awful at hiding it. He was tall, dark, Italian, and handsome. He knew it, too. He was recently broken up with the girlfriend and was single, and I was a nervous stupid wreck around him.

We all started hanging out together as a group, and this was the first time I experienced any social life as I was sheltered a lot by my Middle Eastern parents growing up. This was when, let's call him "Nate," and I started to talk. The flirtation initiated on his end, and after my initial shock, I started to reciprocate. We started texting, and that turned into sexting which turned into feelings. We started a relationship in secret.

One day, my sister "saw" our texts and freaked out initially but quickly came to be "supportive" and eventually suggested an idea of how I could lose my virginity to him. My older sister was horribly cruel and abusive to me growing up. She always resented me for being a loser and would get made fun of in school for being related to me. She took her anger out on me for "embarrassing" her, and i guess escaped being made fun of by bullying me as well in high school. I literally have scars on my face because of how abusive she was. If you want to know more, ask in the comments.

Anyways, all this to say I was shocked that she was suddenly acting like a sister to me. To be clear, I was a complete virgin. I was 17, and he was 22 (held back a year). I had never been kissed or done ANYTHING sexual. Never even flirted or been on a date. My sister suggested that if I wanted to sneak off to lose my virginity, I should tell my parents I wanted to tour the college and our school had a program where you could take a free day off school to tour a local college. She suggested we tell my parents he'd pick me up Sunday night, I'd stay the night (and lose my virginity) at his apartment, tour the school and he'd drop me off the next day at home.

Long story short, it worked. I lost all my virginities and fell in love with the guy. He was constantly hot and cold. Telling me he loved me and wanted to date me publicly and marry me and all that stuff to ignoring me. My little immature 17 year old brain with zero experience was tortured for 9 months of confusion and essentially narcissistic abuse now that I look back with the maturity of a 30 year old adult.

Now, let's get to the discovery. "Nate" ended up breaking my heart after 9 months by choosing a waitress at his college to officially date openly, and I was heartbroken and devastated. I was so confused that I decided to snoop through my sisters private conversations with him to see if I could get answers...

Turns out, before we started fooling around, my sister and him exchanged a text that crushed my soul... He said, "Let's play take Mel's sisters virginity." I saw them plan out everything, making fun of me for having an obvious crush at their engagement party and her coaching him on how to fuck with my head. They literally planned out love bombing me and ghosting me to torture me for 9 months. He shared intimate details about my body with her and they would laugh and make fun of me behind my back. My sister apparently knew he was cheating on me for 9 months with several different partners and my sister knew the waitress and openly said things it hurts too much to remember.

I don't talk to my sister and haven't for 5 years. She has apologized for how she treated me as kids but I never gave a shit. Anyways I don't want to make this any longer but it was therapeutic to type this out and have the story of how fucked up my introduction to adulthood was so.. here it is. If you have questions I'll answer in the comments but yah.

Who I thought was my first love was actually just another cruel joke from my sister to torture me for being a loser that embarrassed her. None of it was real. It was all a lie.