How do you keep going?

Dad of two here, I’ve been out of work since August and as we roll into the Christmas period it looks highly unlikely I’ll get anything this year. Which as you can imagine is weighing heavily on me.

I’m pulling pints at the pub to try and make an end meet but the trade off is I’m hardly seeing my family. Which hurts me and them, further not helped when it’s quiet and I’m left to my own thoughts of despair.

My question is how do you personally keep plugging away through this? I have such a fear I won’t get a job back to the level I was at as I’m getting knock backs from roles much lower than my previous salary and confidence is at an all time low, despite my best efforts to mask that from my loved ones I can tell it’s having an affect on them.

Embarrassing post I know, but would take any advice or reassurance at this point!