i miss my ex

i really miss him. it’s been 5 months since he broke up with me, we weren’t toxic or anything we were actually pretty fantastic together. just due to him moving back home for school made us ld. it got hard for him handling school and me i guess and he preferred to just let me go and i think that’s the worst part. telling me i deserved someone better but he was the better for me. we ended on good terms but i was pretty blindsided by it and honestly didn’t get many answers of what i wanted. we still chat here and there and it’s really nice because I’ve thought about him probably every day. he has been the only person I’ve been with actually understand everything about me and made me feel seen and safe. he was so gentle with me and i was so in love but still love him and i just miss everything about him and being in his presence again. i just want to talk to him again, be able to FaceTime and see his face again. i battle with texting him and not because i know it’s not something i should do but i love when i am talking to him.