just diagnosed - advice needed

19F UK, with anxiety&depression

just got diagnosed today with VM from my GP. i don't think they're 100% certain yet as im getting blood tests this week.

but basically im terrified.

the last week has been awful, and my anxiety is making it worse.

extreme vertigo/dizziness all the time weakness lethargy/fatigue (i've been sleeping all the time) constantly feeling like i'm going to faint

all i do everyday is google stuff about VM and try to make myself feel better about it, but it's just making me worse. all i see is horror stories about people who have suffered for years with no relief and im absolutely terrified. health anxiety is one of my worst conditions but right now all im thinking is, im going to have to suffer with this condition forever. i wont get my old life back and ill be so disabled from this condition ill end up offing myself.

i'm sorry this is so negative im just venting and full of anxiety for the past week. i've literally been in bed all the time because if i go outside i end up almost passing out and having panic attacks. all i do is sleep to get away from this feeling, and im scared man. ive had to get a sickline for my work because i cant even get out of bed right now. this feels awful.

i'm not sure what im looking for on here, maybe some words of reassurance or advice? idk, i really dont know what to do, i dont see any hope from this and im scared it'll never end.

ive been given 10mg amitrptyline, but im so worried nothing will help. i dont wanna cope with a condition the rest of my life i want a normal happy life man.