Amazing
Went to lunch with friends yesterday. They wanted pizza. I ordered a grilled chicken salad. I had no desire whatsoever to have pizza. And pizza used to be my trigger food. I can 1000% honestly say that I didn’t even think twice about having the grilled chicken instead of the pizza.
In the past I would have thought about this and dreaded it for days before the lunch plans. I would have debated all day and night if I should just get the pizza. I would have planned for the salad and then changed my mind at the last minute, ordered the pizza, and then spent the rest of the day beating myself up about it.
Instead I went home after a great time spent with friends, I did some schoolwork, laundry, I did a short weight workout and a little walking and I made a normal dinner. No regrets, no feeling sorry for myself. I just felt…normal. This is such a completely new feeling for someone like me who has had food noise for their entire 50+ years on this earth. I’m just simply amazed every day, and it’s been 2 months now. I want to feel this way forever. This has been like a miracle for me.