Being average started antinatlsim for me... is that wrong?

Antinatlsim started with me because of relationships. Reasons like suffering, disappointment, etc followed afterwards. Im (25M) an average guy with average looks, average build. Never had a relationship/sex.

Its not a good feeling wanting a relationship but your just not desirable by the other sex because there's better options. Especially, not being wanted by women of your own race. (I'm black, most black women don't like me because I act "white". In reality, I'm just not ghetto and don't do drugs.)

It took me years to accept being alone, still am. Though its not everything, pleasure and partnership still play a big role in one's quality of life. I wouldn't want a son/daughter to experience the same thing when I cant promise they'll have it better. Especially nowadays...