Service time feels like a waste

Scrambling around the night before drill as is tradition. I have 1.5 years left on my contract. I'm just sitting here thinking how much of life I'm missing. It seems every drill weekend is when a old friend from out of town visits, or the overlaps with the only window to see family.

I enlisted during COVID when all the work dried up. I'm an NCO now and I feel like I'm never not working. Constant messages from the command team. Having to chase people down. Be an SME when I barely remember how to do my job from AIT.

We have no resources. We constantly have LIK and SIK denied. No money for schools or PME. Our whole AGR team left within 6 months of each other and they haven't been replaced. So many of the experienced people/old guard are transferring to other units. Everyone's in a bad or apathetic mood about doing anything.

We're not effective or mission capable. We just show up to fry in the motorpool, PMCS the same broken CBRN equipment that big army can't fix, and lose sleep. What are we still doing here? I used to be excited about the army, I made honor grad. It just feels like it's all a waste.