Anyone else feel this way? Feeling so dysphoric you end up feeling hopeless and depressed cause of gender dysphoria

Hi I'm Layla transgender girl (no HRT yet)

I Need some encouragement on this feeling of hopelessness that I wish I was a girl so that I can continue my family tree but I'm born as a guy and realising that i would have to take hrt and bottom surgery meaning that I would technically end the biological preservation of my family tree for my part in the short run but I would be happy in the long run being able to express who I am, cuz I feel like I'm having a "dying corpse" metaphor feeling inside of me where my inner child girl is a dying corpse inside this male body of mine and that she was the real person I am and she was contained and closed off from the world and she isn't free