Does Cannabis make you feel more neurotypical?
Edited to add: when I say neurotypical, it's what I imagine neurotypicals are like, like lessens the autistic differences or maybe makes me way more comfortable with them
Okay, so CW for drug topic,
. I've used cannabis for over a year now medically because of chronic pain and fatigue conditions and I found it really helped me feel less pain and also able to focus and be productive. And then I realised that also extended to my mental health and how I can tolerate the world more. I can pick and choose what sounds I can focus on when high, and when I'm not high, its always so overwhelming and stimulating and causes me pain.
I can actually focus on and finish tasks without getting distracted. I can hyperfocus at will instead of it coming out of nowhere and being so uncomfortable by how intense it is.
I can weirdly sing better? Like I find it easier to use the correct tone and vocal muscles in order to make the appropriate sound that aligns with my brains interpretation of it.
I am way more conscious of my fullness and thirst cues, and difficult foods that I usually avoid are easier to eat and digest instead of making me gag and wretch and then have a meltdown. It's still not pleasant, but means I can eat more veg and stuff for health.
Speaking on the eating things, I have less dysphagia issues and I have less choking.
I can actually visualise things in my mind a lot better. Still also not great, but there's marked improvement!
Socially, I can actually talk to people where as I'd normally be nonverbal. My social reading of body language and tone isn't affected by it sadly, I still can't understand what the changes in behaviour or tone mean in social situations, or remeber social rules any better. But I can verbally say words to people and make a point even if not in full coherent sentences.
I become more confident and carefree and honestly just have less of the barrier autism traits and equally have the positives I like of being autistic, the best of both worlds so to speak.
I don't know, I guess weed just helps me experience what life could be like for neurotypicals and I can get a snippet of the freedom of not being autistic.
I'm not ashamed I'm autistic by any means, but I really struggle with it so much, even when I've been highly supported. There is a downside to being autistic at times, I think we can all agree?
But I'm interested in what you all think about it, mainly as autistics but other NT and ND opinions welcome too!