The hate autistic people get online

Maybe it’s some form of self-destruction, but I often find myself searching out negative things people say about autism. And the thing is, it’s not hard to find at all. I’ve seen a lot of disgusting things said about autism, and a lot of very disturbing behavior being attributed to autism. People saying things like “autistic people are school shooters,” “autistic people are more likely to molest kids,” “autistics can only cognitively and emotionally function as a 5-year-old,” “autistic people have no empathy,” “I hate my autistic child or I love my child but hate their autism,” “autistic people are stressful and exhausting to be around,” and lots of other disturbing statements. For some reason, I take it personally and use it to fuel my self-hatred, and I’m also just so afraid that this is what the majority of people really think of autistic people… I tend to ruminate a lot, and I don’t really know how to deal with these negative thoughts and emotions right now :(