Feeling very discouraged

Idk if anyone will see this but I’ve just been feeling so discouraged lately. I just started fishkeeping and aquascaping hobby. I’ve tried researching so much about it and yet my tank looks awful. I see all these beautiful tanks on Reddit and online and I feel like idk what I’m doing. I’m cycling a 10 gal but I feel like I’m even messing that up. I’m trying and I want to give whatever fish I get in the future good life. But I’m lost and how am I supposed to be a good fish owner if I can’t even figure out how to make my tanks look comforting for my fish? I want to get more plants but I don’t know which ones are best and how to keep them alive. Idk where these people are getting beautiful rocks and wood from and how they make their tanks look so good. I also feel terrible because I got a 5 gallon and have it all set up for a Betta but then I went on Reddit and see so many posts saying that if you keep a betta in a 5 gallon tank, you’re a loser animal abuser basically. But I thought I was doing a good thing by not getting a bowl or anything less than a 5 gallon. I was wrong ig. I don’t expect anyone to read this. Just venting