How to have the WTF talk

EDIT: guyssss, what have I been doing? I feel sick to my stomach and ashamed. I’m codependent and have no confidence.

Baby is about to be one. I have done….everything. I am not being hyperbolic. He gave him his first bath this last week. I just…don’t understand. It seems so obvious to want to help me, but he doesn’t.

I have been in such a fight or flight mode this first year that I now realize I really need help raising this child. The first day we had him home from the hospital, my boyfriend just went back to work. Like it was a normal day. I feel like that set the tone for me. That he just expected me to do it.

I’m a very understanding and non confrontational person so along with being in fight or flight this year, I’ve kind of just taken the stance of, “Well, he clearly doesn’t want to. So why force him? His loss anyway.” Last week two people asked if I feel like a single parent. It stung because it’s true.

My bf is NOT lazy, works hard at his job for us, pays our rent and often cooks us dinner. But it’s just like I am doing everythingggggg from feeding to changing to nap schedules to activities to everything.

Today he wasn’t feeling well after a night of drinking (common occurrence). He said he would be up today to go to the Little Gym with us. I told him he would be too tired and of course I was right. It’s so disappointing. Going to things like that where other women have their guy with them….it’s lonely. Do I be the bitch that calls him out? It’s not working for me and I don’t know how I can have another kid if it’s like this. I work part-time as well and I’m just tired.