Anyone go back to being bisexual or lesbian after a very long period of being strictly straight?

Or atleast 98% straight. I always had specific types with women but never had sex with them and mostly made out. My whole life I've been really straight and maybe felt 2% bi. In the 9th grade when I was still a virgin I convinced myself I liked girls too and watched a lot of lesbian porn and never experienced penetration yet, only Masturbated by rubbing my clit. I always thought about boys but then I shortly switched to penetrating myself when masturbating only and then mostly straight porn. I haven't watched lesbian porn since the 9th grade. Also I lost my virginity a while after to that to a boy and have been strictly dick/ men since then like for a while I never felt straighter and when I was 20 there was still very few women I would've with or atleast had a threesome. In my mid 20s to now those feelings disappear and I've felt really straight but now I'm thinking what if I don't really know? I never had sex with one and feel it may be refreshing after years of men and straightness to explore that. A lot of women of a certain age look to men to provide but I'm getting disgusted by them and maybe it would be freeing to do something I haven't done for half my life. Anyone else go through shit like this or is this just a late quarter life crisis? Last interaction I even had with a female was 5 years ago or more. We were making out on the couch naked about to hook up and then have sex, her male fiancée was sleeping in the bed room but they were basically swingers and she actually wanted me to fuck him in front of her. I was more attracted to her than him at the time because he was way younger and not attractive but now I'd probably be more into him because I have no feelings for women left whatsoever but feel I maybe can. She wanted to do everything but we never did have sex. I wasn't too into her body as I thought I'd be and the next morning I felt grossed out. The next morning she texted me saying I'm hot and we've since drifted. I feel so different with men but I've not had a good past with them either as in terms of being hurt LOL. I'm not really with anyone right now I guess it's complicated but every boyfriend I've had would not even mind me having sex with females. I really don't even know if this is trauma men have given me talking though. Has this worked for anyone. I honestly feel dead inside I wanna feel alive. Also just wanna add everytime I've made out with a female I was drunk besides the gf I had in the 9th grade. I have no female friends even anymore for years and the one I mentioned was my last one. I developed a resentment for them and started loving men but they're kinda shitty so. Maybe this would help le