[Aporia] I am stressing

I just started this manhwa out of pure curiosity. I wanted to read Critical point but someone from there said if I wanted healthy BDSM manhwa, I should read Aporia. Critical point is good but i heard its very toxic. So before getting myself into any BDSM manhwa I wanted to get used to it first. (BJ Alex bdsm side couple doesn't count they were just cute pls) So after diving in Aporia, it got me stressing. Before you get me wrong let me clarify, the characters here are very realistic. It portrays every concerns and every emotions. So that's why it got me stressing. Like the MC doesn't communicate because he's afraid the ML will stop their relationship and the ML always asks him if he's okay or not but my boy still is a sadist so their relationship is bound to get messy. And this manhwa is teaching me everything. Like I kid you not. Its teaching me how I should always speak out if I ever feel confused about anything. The ML isn't toxic. Before their relationship started, he already said his bits about his nature and all and MC being the lovesick puppy he just gives in. But I guess their relationship will progress and they will communicate. But this is the only manhwa which makes me to take breaks in between or I will crash lol.

(sorry for my bad English)