Wanted to get this off my chest…

This is about something which happened to me 2 years ago and it still gives me chills and makes me so nervous whenever I see them or even remember what happened.

So this is about my Bava(30M). Ma iddariki 9 years age gap undi. I F(21) was 19 when this happened.

He’s my dad’s younger sisters son. Chinnapatinunchi ma family ki atanu chala close. By virtue of being outgoing and funny he’s loved by all but is deemed very recklesss because of his habits and past. Covid time daaka I was not particularly close with him. I used to talk when family was there but apart from that ledu.

Covid time lo he started to come to our house a lot to help my parents and us recover from the attack we had. We were greatful and that got him, my annaya and me very close. He used to drop by our house a lot and we used to order food, hangout and enjoy a lot. It was very harmless( or so I thought) until that point

Cut to 2023. Naaku semester exams ayitunna time lo one exam day he came to our house as usual and as I just came from the exam centre I was very tired and just went and slept on my parents bed. Annaya ki cheppi vella that chala neerasamga undi get electrol ani. That time it was just me and bava at home.

I was sleeping on the bed and suddenly i felt heavy weight on my body. When I opened my eyes it was pitch black and I couldn’t move my hands or legs. After a minute I was able to understand that bava came and laid on top of me and held my wrists and pinned my legs ani. I was shouting at him to move but after 2 whole minutes he just rolled on the side and put his one hand on my chest and was groping me with his other. I couldn’t do much cause he was too strong and heavy and I just laid there saying bava please levu this is not right I don’t feel comfortable ani.

He again rolled onto me and buried his head in the nape of my neck and got so close to me, I had tears in my eyes. Enta beg chesina he didn’t move. When my annaya came home, he made my bro go out again from the hall itself and asked him to bring something else. A time ki asalu mind panicheyyale annaya ki cheppali ani.

After that he repeated the same thing and it was downright disgusting. Then when annaya came and he had to leave he took me on a bike ride and apologised saying I know I crossed the line please forgive me ani. Inka em anale nenu I just ignored

He came the next fucking day and as I was studying he started groping me from behind and touching so weirdly . Inka annaya ki cheppa and tarvata in private em avvaledu- again or so I thought

This kept happening quite often in the span of 5 months. Last straw was when his family hosted a gathering at their place. Night 2 ki we were sleeping on the floor all the kids and I was sleeping on the edge. He came and snuck beside me, one hand on my mouth and one on my chest again. I couldn’t even scream. His own father was there but I could do nothing. He did this for an hour and after his dad came to see what the noise is, this man ran away but he didn’t get caught

After this he never came near me. I was very relived. I told this to my mom and even she felt something was off with this man ani. We couldn’t confront him as the family might get torn ani. We alr have very strong headed family members and I myself don’t want any drama so we didn’t want to make a ruckus.

Taravata telsindi entante he got a girlfriend and he wants to marry her ani. Memu Brahmins and they are idk but non Brahmins. Their family is refusing and he’s not talking to anyone in this whole family. I’m glad that he’s ignoring me.

Ik meeru anachu just tell his parents ani, kani it would break the family and we can’t afford to do that. Already chala ayyayi e family lo and even my mom who is a strong advocate of confrontation said ne istam but I won’t suggest ani. And im sorry im not ballsy enough to do that

This haunts me everytime I look at a man or even think of anything sexual. What if they do this to me? What if it happens again? What if I get blamed? This turmoil is not ending. I can never make peace with this fact m

Wanted to end 2024 and all the negativity behind but this is just not leaving me. So ikkada post chesi once and for all I’m making peace with this. Hope future isn’t too cruel on me or anyone of you :))