I'm so angry!

DCIS grade 3, possible IDC hiding in there too.

I need to decide what to do, but this post is not about how to make a decision.

I'm just so angry!

Everyone is telling me that oh, with this bra or with clothing, it will look great.

I care what I look like naked! I care very much!

I put a lot of effort in how I look. I'm proud of my body.

I don't have buns of steel and I'm not a body builder, but I still look damn good at 42. I'm strong and freaking muscular. I love wearing bikinis. I lift heavy weights. I'm doing Brazillian jiu jitsu 4 times a week for the last 6.5 years. I just started Muay Thai. I'm to old to step in the Octogen myself, but I'm training with my team and helping them.

And I still have so much life ahead of me still!

I don't have a husband. I don't have a boyfriend. I would love to settle down again one day.

I'm never going to stop wanting to look my best and dammit.

I care what my breasts look like naked. I care!

Why does it feel like I'm the only one who cares???