Waiting for next steps and what to wear.

I’m one week out from my DMX. Tomorrow I go see the oncologist for next steps. Of course I’m nervous about what I’ll hear and what I’ll need to do next. And also….

I snuck a peak at my body and as I knew I would-it made me cry a bit. My belly right below where my breasts used to be is hard, and looks bloated. I was a 34JJJ and they removed 10 pounds of breast tissue. And it looks a bit like a slaughter job….i know it’s just one week out and things will change. And I also know I’d do it again. But damn grrrl. This is the real stuff🤣

My chest looks concave. And I’m wondering how I’m going to find things to wear that don’t just make me look like a sumo wrestler. I’m so used to having to wear big on top and tight on the bottom (I wear size 12, but I was often in yoga pants)…..now what? How do I dress??

Also-also…..the surgeon seems to have left me with like golf ball sized flesh under my arms so that I can’t comfortably put my arms down. And puckering btwn the two incisions on my breast bone. Is this normal? I am afraid I’m going to need plastic surgery just to correct the mastectomy results for quality of life! (I’m not doing reconstruction)

Love to hear from others DMX experiences!!

EDIT: also I did not poop for 4 days post surgery and for the past 3 days I’ve had just what I might say are marbles. Very little. I’ve taken colace every single day and it’s just not moving…..and today I walked for quite sometime and at the end of the walk I got a sharp pain that shot through my heart making me dizzy and breathless. It happened only the one time.

Let me know if any of this resonates with you and thx!