No inner monologue?

I am 23yo, I take escitalopram 20mg (for 2 years now) as well as bupropion XL 150mg (started two weeks ago now), to help treat MDD and PTSD.

Sorry if this is really scattered, my cognition is at an all time low honestly:

I’m having a serious dilemma, and this is going to sound really stupid but I have no voice in my head anymore. Replaying songs isn’t an issue, but I’m having issues picturing things in my head, and I don’t hear the things I’m thinking of saying— it’s leading me to saying some really out of pocket stuff. Is/has this happened to anyone else? It’s actually really frustrating. I can’t really put together coherent sentences without verbally revising what I said after it’s already come out of my mouth.

Escitalopram was a goddmn nightmare to get started on, so bupropion has been a cake walk in comparison, but I am really bothered that it’s affecting the people around me… not just *me. I’d be more content with the nausea and insomnia I got while starting my other meds, honestly. Now I’m saying really stupid sh** all the time. I sound high. I slur my words sometimes, too. Thankfully I don’t have like… intrusive thoughts, which is nice. And I can actually sleep without tossing and turning for hours. But this embarrassment that I’m feeling from royally screwing up my sentences and conversations is really taxing.

Anyways. Anyone else missing the voice in their head?