I am a slow person, people don’t like people that are slow. My experiences as a kid.

I hope this title doesn’t go the wrong way but I’m going to be honest here. I don’t want kids because you don’t know what type of child you’ll get and what if you get a child that doesn’t catch on to things quickly. I’m that person. I struggled in school and at work at times. I wasn’t that great at sports and that could be frustrating to people. I wasn’t considered weird. As an adult I realize cruel the world can be to people who don’t understand things right away and if I take that risk and have a child that had the same experience as me I wouldn’t forgive myself. My therapist thinks it’s childhood wounds and just focus on not raising my child the same way but I’d rather not raise one tbh. I’m doing fine now, I have a high level role at work and it’s going fine but I still get imposter syndrome and I still feel The same way I felt as a kid. Also, I hear people complain about their kids when they are not great at things and they call them all types of losers and this comes from the parents! With parents like that who need enemies!

When I say slow: I don’t understand tasks right away and I’ve always been told I frustrate people.