I feel like I’ve wasted my 20’s

I’ve recently turned 30, got out of yet another toxic relationship and realised something my entire 20’s when I could of been out enjoying myself and having fun and experiencing new things I’ve spent it stupidly searching for mr right, my soul mate, my husband to be, father of my kids etc

Now I’m 30. Never had a one night stand. Never done any sort of hook ups and have absolutely nothing to show for it other than an ongoing grape case and multiple instances of SA and domestic abuse.

Should I be less afraid of just getting out there and seeing what happens?

Is waiting around for the right guy just wasting what time I could have experiencing different people?

Am I too old now?! I feel so so old now!