I am ending it.

I am purchasing a weapon and ending it. I tried to talk to my mom about how I feel and she said it’s so rude and sad to put that on someone else. Which is fair, but who else am I supposed to talk to? I have a lot of issues going on that I don’t have enough energy to list out. I am going to visit all my family within the next week to say my goodbyes but they won’t know it. My life is just fucked.

I don’t really know why I’m posting this. I really don’t. I guess I just want at least one person to read this and understand how I feel. I just want someone to understand my feelings and not hate me for what I’m going to do, but understand how much pain I’m in.