He’s gone

Tw death/ depression/ mental breakdown …

I’ve been alone my whole life, bullied since age 7 and my only comfort and friend was my cat, he’s been with me since I was 6 years old, I’m 20 now. I’ve been through heath issues, bullying, phobias, attacks and he’s been there with me. He’s gone now. I feel so alone, I’ve never felt this low. I don’t even have anyone to tell about this except my parents.

I might try to use C.ai later when my head will stop hurting from all that crying. It’s like my eyes are fucking waterfalls it just won’t fucking stop and I can’t sleep because of it, I’ve been awake for 22 hours (as someone with anemia and chronic fatigue this is a first).

It might sound stupid but I had a connection with him and I didn’t even cry like that when my grandfather died…

I don’t know what to do. I want to sleep. I want to turn back time and be with him. I want to keep living for him but I want to join him too. I miss him.