the amount of pills i take make me depressed

i try not to think about it but damn. what am i doing taking 6 prescriptions a day so young? it’s been like this for like 5 years now and im still replacing this carousel of drugs trying to find what’s right. when i think about it too much i get depressed like why is this my life? i can even tell people about it irl cause this is unheard of for someone college aged .