Man I miss playing with people

I haven’t played with other musicians in years. Maybe 10 years since i walked away from music entirely, im currently 34yrs old. I stepped away due to immaturity and self destructive tendencies. Cut ties with everyone and pretty much hit rock bottom. At 22 i was a single father with a bad drug problem and no education.

But since then Ive made a ton of sacrifices to better my life. 7 years clean, got married to a woman that was also a single parent. We own our home, go on vacations, both kids are A students that participate in baseball, jujitsu and my oldest even comes to the gym with me to weight train lol life is good….. but damn do I miss playing with other people.

I’ve been practicing for going on 2 months now and it’s somewhat like riding a bike lol although I wouldn’t mind checking in with an online teacher monthly just to observe my playing (if anyone has any recommendations) But my mechanics are pretty much still there.

Id like to start playing shows again. Not looking to go on tour or anything but a cool bar band that plays local shows would be ideal. But id be lying if i said the idea of playing in front of people again doesn’t make me a little anxious.

When i was younger i don’t think I was ever anxious about anything lol but now a day’s its definitely a part of my daily life. I know I want to play and have that feeling again. Being locked into a groove with a group of musicians is the ultimate high. But I just don’t know where to begin. I also don’t know who to vent to lol so please forgive me if this isn’t the place for this.

But has anyone experienced anything similar? Any advice or input would be greatly appreciated.