I want to be a dwarf (Serious post)

Idk where else can I post this so I choose this sub as I know the community is chill.

I seriously want to be a dwarf. It became when I first saw those memes on instagram where there they talk about digging tunnels and finding rare minerals. That is what I want to do with my life.

I want to be a 5 feet tall, fat dwarf with a long beard. I want to go subterranian exploration with my buddies and find metal veins. I want to go to my little room lit with the warm light of a lantern and look at all my trinkets at the end of the day.

This thing is seriously affecting my life. Last week I spent half of my savings on gold coins and jewelry. I cant help myself but to collect every metal I find. All I've been drinking is beer and I randomly find myself whistling jolly tunes while I examine all the minerals I've collected this month.

Did anyone have a similar experience? Will it go away on it's own or am I destined to live like this for the rest of my life?