Mom keeps inviting me

My mom converted when I was 9 because of my uncle and I feel like my life got ruined ever since. I’m now 34 and recently got fired from my job and now I’m living with my mom again. It drives me up the wall that my mom still tries to get me to accompany her. Sometimes I do feel bad she goes by herself and I wanna accompany her to be a good son but I just can’t bring myself to sit thru two hours of agonizing bullshit.

She keeps thinking that one day I’ll go and I’ll listen to one of the brothers speak and some magical combination of words will caress itself into my ears and my chest will explode with divine aura and I will accept the congregation become baptized find a wonderful sister and be protected by Jehovah from Satan and all his works until the day of judgement come and we will be able to witness a judgement that the James Cameron himself with his lack of jehovas divine inspiration could ever allow him to even put pen to paper let alone create a whole movie that even comes close to what Jehova will actually bring.

Anyways, my name is Jon and I’m new to this subreddit.