We’re broke and mum wants to go hajj

Guys we are literally on fucking benefits, it’s me and 3 siblings and my mum. We can hardly afford the groceries and electricity and I give so much of my student finance to keep us afloat. But my mum thinks it’s an amazing idea for us as a family to go to fucking hajj. She said it’ll be a blessing, I’m so mad because I’m the only other person she can rely on financially, I work so much that I hardly go lectures but let’s blow a bunch of money to touch a rock. She said she’ll pay for me but it’s still too fucking much and i know she’ll be asking for money after the trip. I love her and I don’t mind helping with bills but this is infuriating we are not in a place to do this. Islam makes your brain mush this is why we don’t prosper I’m so mad