Anyone else grown up punished for big emotions?

Happy or sad, it didnt matter. If we got too excited as kids, we were yelled at. Too much laughing, yelled at. Too sad? Be sad quietly and alone. If we cried loud, or let our parents see we were crying, we'd get yelled at or get the 'why the hell are you crying?' remarks/ attitude. Even if it was something to genuinely be upset about.

This kind of messed me up as an adult because now when I need to cry I try to run away from everyone. I'm very good at taking a moment and just sobbing quietly by myself without anyone knowing. My partner hates it.

I also have a hard time expressing excitement for something. Like I could be told right now that I just won 1 million dollars and I'd probably say "....okay."

Did anyone else have this issue?

It has gotten better the longer I've been away from my parents and in a healthy relationship, but some things still stick.