Any bajs ever done something that made your family and friends think you're going crazy?

I'm taking the next semester off to try and be a full-time athlete. Probably with work on the weekends.

It's a relief because studying was very painful, and I didn't want to be put on meds to rape my brain into focusing, as big Ted. K would've advised. I even study my degree content on my own for fun, but the indoctrination of my university makes it feel like I'm getting psychologically raped when I study for exams or these restrictive assignments.

I burnt out and I feel a bit crazy because everyone at my school acts like it's normal for half the class to be medicated, either by a doctor, or their own vices (often both). There's been dozens of on-campus suicides since covid. Everyone is sports betting. Personally, I've seen multiple people softly crying while studying in the library. One time I saw this girl bleeding from all her fingers because she'd nervously chewed all the skin off while watching lecture recordings on her laptop at like 2am. This was just before midterms. What do these people who publicly suffer so much do to themselves in private?

What the fuck is going on? Something is gonna crack. The fucking chudjak will eat his words. I will personally make him do it if I can.

And somehow, I'm the crazy one for leaving. If I find any success, there's no chance I'm coming back to school. Idk man...