Regret
I've been transitioning for 6 years now, 3 years on T and 1 since top surgery. A year and a half ago I got thought "You could've been a beautiful woman", this occurred to me after my crush (a cis man) didn't like me back. The crush passed but I also started dressing more femenine (tight dresses, mini skirts, crop tops) and I liked how I looked and how I felt. I missed feeling pretty. Today, i've decided i'm gonna stop HRT for many reasons (I'm happy with my changes but i want to go back to a more androgynous body).
My main thing is, i'm SO SO SO SO worried about what everyone is going to say. I feel like a disappointment and a failure. I was so sure that I was a man that idk what to do now. I'm not planning on identifying as a woman but i'm not a man either. I don't know what to do and i'm really scared.
Help me please.