I need the courage to give myself my injection

I was supposed to give myself my injection hours ago, but i clam up everytime I'm about to put the needle in. I can prepare my dose, find my injection site- but i get so nervous before i need to inject that i just can't do it. My hands get so sweaty everytime that the markings on my syringe start rubbing off, i get the most unbearable heat wave all over my body, and anxiety to boot. I swear im trying my best, but i feel like its completely debilitating. Ive even tried to ask my friends and family to help but i freak out even when they try to do it for me. I cant just look away and do it because im afraid of fucking up or the person injecting me fucking up. And i feel like such a burden because i ask everyone around me for help, just to end up not even letting them. And i absolutely cannot do gel because i want my changes to happen faster, and i due terribly with daily schedules. I dont even have a problem administratoring the T, its just im too terrified to put the needle in my skin. Ive even lost sleep over the anxiety of having to do it every monday. And its almost 12:00 am and i feel so hopeless. Does anyone have some helpful advice that might make my situation a little bearable? Thank you in advance 3: