I’m pregnant and relapsed tonight… feeling so much guilt *tw*

I’ve been still struggling with restriction a little but have been eating enough (just restricting what I’m eating, when, and not eating if I’m hungry if I’ve had ‘enough’) since finding out that I’m pregnant, but I haven’t purged in months (even before becoming pregnant). I had a fear food yesterday and then again today and I think it was just too overwhelming and I got to thinking about it and ended up purging. I feel SO GUILTY I can’t even stand myself right now and it’s leading to wanting to relapse with other things. I’m so worried about if purging could have hurt the baby and feeling so guilty and ashamed and idk how I’m going to tell my team because they’re all going to be so disappointed and upset with me…