Topping

I am strickly a submissive bottom, i always have been.

I have an off and on friend recently who is versatile. Now i can get hard if you talk dirty in my ear, if you play with or suck my cock. Grab my nipples i go to the moon. Play with my ass and fuck me i could drive nails with my cock.

Ask me to fuck you, i couldnt get hard if you threatened me with a hand grenade.

My friend wanted me to fuck him, couldnt get anywhere, so he gave me a viagra. I got hard and i fucked him, but it was like i was going through the motions.

If we were 69'ing my neighbors hear me on the next block. I was fucking him, i kept looking at the clock.

I try and put my best 'fake on' and he loved it, but i dont think i could do it again. This isnt like he is my one and only, we are not exclusive, but for me to fuck him i couldt get hard without the drug.

I want to tell him, and honestly if he doesn't want to get together qgain after i tell him i am not going to lose any sleep over this.

Am i being an asshole or ahould i just suck it up for the two to three times every couple of months we hook up