Should I just quit cheer due to the problems and stress it has caused in my life or stay because I know I find joy in it ?

I am 15 [F] and I cheer for a public school and go to said school, for reasons that will be mentioned, I will not be saying the school I go to.

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I 15 [F] cheer for a public school and lately since December my experience at for cheer has been decreasingly enjoyable, on a game in December against I believe a private school, we had been harassed and for better or worse words, degraded. I have a lot of negative emotions about that game, as I was the main flyer of that game. I was fairly excited because I got to do an extension lib, sorry if most of you don't know what that is, it was a big deal for me as I am a freshmen and I had never got to be the main flyer for a game.

It is important to know that most of our varsity team quit due to being sick of our head coach, we will call her papaya.

It is also important to know that this could be a little triggering for here on out.

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Before the game we had started to warm up our stunts, behind the rival team since the school had not given us a proper place to stunt, while another flyer, to which we will call Blueberry, was warming up her stunts, I was right behind the rival team, being quite and watching the game with a few other team mates.

Mind you, I wasn't paying attention to the students of the school below me. To which at some point they had taken a picture up our skirts, to this day we don't know which cheerleader it was or if it was all of us. But we didn't find out until we were done warming up our stunts which was a good thing because there was metal all around us and it wasn't an open spot, to which if one of us got in a bad mind set and something happened, I most likely hit my head. We went over to our small spot over by our team, across the gym. That is when on of out cheerleaders to which we will call her strawberry, mentioned it to us and our assistant cheer coach.

Our assistant cheer coach went to the students with the rival schools athletic director, to which the athletic director said, and I quote, "sorry about that, their just freshmen" and brushed it off. Then we had gotten a pop can thrown at us, we where just sitting or standing near the stairs not bothering anybody. Then amost 2 minutes later we got barked at by non other than the rival teams students, to which we found out they were juniors, one of our cheerleaders may have barked back at them. Then we had starting five, to which the rival team turned their backs to us while we were stunting, blueberry ended up falling we got them back up and they braced me while I did my extension lib.

While the game went on, it was half time we went to get snacks, we had to use the buddy system since there had been threats toward us, my god mother was their, we will call her Bannana, she will be important later on in the story. But Bannana would have to be down with the cheerleaders while out assistant coach would be up stairs with the others. During the third quarter we decided to go home early. Blueberry had also found out our head coach, we shall call her papaya, was out at a bar drink while all of this happened.

It is important to know that I do understand it was our assistant coaches game to coach but, our head coach said that she will be going to the game incase anything happened.

On a side note, it is now a month since this happened and nothing has happened in repercussions or discipline for us or the students of the rival schools.

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Now I will have to make a part two due to having way to much to say, and too many incidents to fully explain and go into detail as it is needed.

^ Don't mind that actually, this is my first time ever posting so sorry!

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It is now January, our head coach, papaya, has came out and said that she will be resigning as head coach of this cheer team, and our assistant coach had said during football season that she would have to be leaving to pursue her career and will be focusing on her education.

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Now, my god mother, Bannana, had found out that our cheer teams finances where not correct, and almost half of it was. Now, I know for a fact that out assistant coach would never do that, but papaya, I wouldn't put it behind her, but I'm also now saying she did that, but she was the head coach.

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Our team that was once a happy team that got to be together and be with each other now just... numb almost it's was just torn apart. I have not been able to cheer with the other flyer, and I love her, she's so nice, I have not mentioned her yet but she was put in the advanced team, but I don't get why, we were the same level, and could do the same stunts. But I rarely ever get to actually talk to her.

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At the last game I had, I found out that the state, was investigating the school, not only for our cheer team but also the dance team, they had almost the same situation.

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At the last practice, on January 29th, it went okay it was sad most of us wanted to bail our eyes out. On our last game, which is January 31st we plan to doing an inversion with the other flyer, I feel like something isn't going to go well but I can put a place on it.

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I now find cheer not as enjoyable, and most the time I end up crying after the games, I miss how we once where, it may just be my hormones as I am on my period but right now but I just need some advice, I am one of two flyers, we had to make one of our seniors fly to do our inversion for the other flyer but, other than that they would be my back.

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As of February 1st we are on our own, and we will not have a coach at all, I am not sure what we are going to do, part of me just wants to just quit and once we have a coach I'll join, but it's just- I don't want to also, I'd leave them with one flyer, and that flyer also does wrestling, so I just don't know what to do.

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Thank you to all who read this far, if you have any advice please help, have a good day, night or evening.