Confused

Hey everyone I could really use some advice from anyone rn. I’m a male but I think I want to become a women. When I’m in private I’ll wear female clothes and I honestly feel amazing wearing them but I hate the way I look so I want a female body so I can feel more like my self. Plus I think being a women would be so fun. Getting my hair or nails done picking out a cute dress for a special event hanging out with my other female friends. It just sounds like what I want. I just don’t know if this is what I want