Lost the only one I loved, why?

I've been always someone who valued my studies and career more than anything and anyone. I never saw anything bad in my ideology. In reality, I've loved only one person, but so much, that I coud do anything for him, like anything for him: that person is my younger brother.

He's no more. Unnatural death. Was supposed to be 20 this month.

We were always together, loved each other so much. I knew he loved me the most as well. He used to say stuff like "hamara janmo ka saath h" and we're always going to stay together. I, with my parents, raised him, he was like my brother, child, best friend, advisor, caretaker, everything. He was a man sent from heaven. Papa usse Ram bolte the. Not only loved me, but everyone. No one said bad things about him. So bright. Helped everyone. Learnt everything so quickly. Physically active. So good looking. So intelligent. Most mature in my family. No flaws. He cared so much for mom and dad, I can never live upto him.

I'm someone who has never done anything bad to anyone. I was always grateful for all I had. Used to do donations whenever I could. Did volunteering work with my brother. I did pooja everyday, thanked God everyday for everything.

I'm Just asking, why. Why is this happening to me. Why is this happening to us. He had his life set. We were so happy. No one can even understand the amount of trememdous pain I feel everday, my family feels everyday. I feel even more pain seeing my parents go through this. They don't deserve this. I wish it was me who had to go, I'm completely useless. My family is broken without him.

Honestly, if God had to take someone from my life, they could've taken anyone. ANYONE. Just not him. He is my everything. I love him truly, unconditionally, from the moment he was born. He had so many friends, I've no one who I can get close to. I've only genuinely laughed with my brother. Our bond is special not just by blood, we just get each other, like no one could. We were on same frequency, we were always just so happy when together. If he had to take him, then why not after years after he lived his best life. All this feels like a nightmare, I just wanna wakeup and hug my brother.

Can I do anything to get him back? Turn back things to normal? Why was he taken from me? What had he done to suffer an unnatural death? What had I done to suffer such tremendous amount of pain for my whole life now? Also how can I live with this pain?

Thankyou for reading till here.