DAE feel really lonely on diwali?

It can't be a one time thing if it is happening every year. For me it's just work work work work and lo end of the day. A few firecrackers for namesake with my family, not even friends. Dress up for a couple hours for no one to see, get tired and go to sleep. Randomly go to the Terris to see what other people are doing when I'm up here all alone.