Resenting friends who don’t care or reach out

23F INFJ-T here

I don’t really know how to word all this, but hopefully all of you will be able to understand.

I 23F am a very hyper-independent and sensitive women. I have always felt a deep connection for animals and nature.

Growing up I didn’t have an issue making friends. I was always there for my friends, supporting, helping them and aiding them with their work.

A lot of the times, I have felt like I have been used and discarded by people. With no consideration that I am human being with feelings.

I have given my time up to people to be used for trauma dumping and being told I am a “good listener” while being somewhat burdened with people constantly dumping their troubles on me.

It’s gotten worse as I believe my nervous system has been seriously dysregulated with me being an emotional mess.

I feel very upset because I am at a point in my life where I feel dissatisfied with everything. Not having people listen to me and disregarding my mental health.

People saying that my feelings are not valid even my trauma experiences. It’s starting to pile up slowly and yes give me trust issues.

I feel like it’s to do with my personality, being introverted, having intense feelings and being very turbulent.