(Update to previous post) I hope I wasn’t too mean in my response this morning.

Trigger warning: suicide, self harm

My mom called me yesterday hoping for support. I listened to all her complaints about having Covid and her cats breaking her Christmas tree and several ornaments I told her I was sorry that was happening. But I failed to cheer her up so she was mad at me. It didn’t seem to matter that I am still reeling from the sudden death of a loved one. From suicide as well and so near the holidays, so it’s really triggering a deep guilt in me and reminding me of my own attempt. Everyone gave kind words and good advice yesterday so I tried to use that advice this morning and yesterday. I took precautions against self harm having what I normally use to cut hidden from me and I’m not really having any urges today. So I’m doing a lot better, I know it’s still going to be hard but it’s something I should try to be proud of. I really really worry about how my mom will respond to this message. But she’s not been violent or hospitalized for her mental health in years. And I do need to try to view my mental health as more important. Thanks again everyone.