Is it selfish as a wanderer if I want to reincarnate back on 4th density earth to experience a normal childhood for once plz?

I know the astral reals are supposed to be way better but they keep wiping my memories after having any intense spiritual or meditation experiences. Its literally like taking dmt ans then forgetting everything right after aside from the core message and that's about it.

Like dam guys. Let me chillax a bit. I'm unsure why but I just wanna be some kid. Like genuinely a kid kid. Make me cute and cuddly with emotionally stable parents. Put me in a nice place to live like in China. I'd like that.

Maybe the heavenly realms will be so much better back in my 5th density space. But I can't remember what that's like anymore. It's probably way better but I just can't tell.

Should I call off work tomorrow? I think I need a day off to rest again. I just need to do nothing for one full day.

But is it selfish though. Can u even do that. It would be more for me just to feel like I have some stability plus I happen to like how humans look. I love our eyeballs that can communicate, our smiles that can express. Our faces express consiousness.

Id be sad if I was a weird looking alien or something because I just happen to love the human appearance so darn much.

Idk guys. Its getting late and I'm sleepy.